Nighttime – dark and cozy, snuggling under the covers free of obligation to take any action whatsoever. Slowly sliding into the warm fluffyness of sleep, luxuriating under its heavy pull.
Usually that’s the way it works, but tonight apparently not 🙁
When sleepless the night transforms into a dimly lit trap. Trying to be quiet so as not to wake anyone else I toss and turn. The body heavy and to tired to make getting up appeal, the sleepless mind itching with boredom. The knowledge that tomorrow will be long and unpleasant if I don’t sleep more than the 2 hours I managed so far only making it worse. Finally I give up and get up. With my head heavy and dull with lack of sleep nothing can truly hold my interest for long. I end up idly fiddling with the computer, watching the hands of the livingroom clock pass 2, then 3.
Even if I manage to fall asleep, I’ll need to get up in a few hours as I arraged with my family that we’d talk in the morning.
Longing for the heavyness in my mind to go away just as much as for sleep.
I hate being sleepless early in the night! Waking up 4 is OK – that’s just an early start. But midnight is way too soon to wake up – most people haven’t even gone to bed yet.